❝so it's not gonna be easy. it's gonna be really hard. we're gonna have to work at this every day, but i want to do that because i want you. i want all of you, forever, you and me, every day.❞

10/02/2019

hello, mon chou. ★°*°

⠀⠀⠀⠀well, first things first, happy eight month, angel! can you believe we've made it so far? been through so much? and everyday, i swear by it, i feel like i fall in love with you all over again.

⠀⠀⠀⠀but. before we get into the gift and before i fall far too down the line of extremely cheesy things to tell you ( because trust me, there is just a whole ton of sappiness waiting for you on the other side of some of these letters ), i just wanted to say; cheers to another couple firsts for us, huh? first february fourteen together. first trip together. first time going to japan as a couple. first time seeing the cherry blossoms. perhaps the list will go on and on and on because i don't think i plan to stop having more firsts with you.

⠀⠀⠀⠀what isn't a first, however, is a gift like this. i know i've made you one before but i felt like we needed a do over since that was what— four or five months ago? and a ton of things have changed. like how we've moved in to a place together? do you still remember when we lived right next to each other? and one of us was always at the other's anyway. but i guess the bigger thing is how we're engaged now— to be married in just a couple more months? of course, some things have remained the same. like how it's still you. me. us. and how i'm still so silly in love with you. and how we still choose each other every single day.

⠀⠀⠀⠀anyway, without much further ado, you already know how this one works but in case you've forgotten— even if i already know you'll definitely ignore my instructions and open them all the minute you get this so i don't know why i'm still explaining the rules—each letter comes with instructions on when to open them for times that you need them. as you've seen here and in the one before, these can range from times that you might need me and i'm not around to a random monday morning and you just feel like reading one because you feel like it.

⠀⠀⠀⠀and one more thing before i let you off, i know these are just little things but hopefully, the letters bring a smile to your face. you deserve only good days and good things and i have made a promise to myself that i will spend the rest of my days trying to bring them to you.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i love you so much, han taeoh.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀lee taehyun.

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01/02/2019

hey, babe.

⠀⠀⠀⠀a little bird told me you were looking for something to do, huh? i'm gonna assume i'm not around or i'm out doing something— so, you're just in luck because i've prepared a few things for you to do to keep you busy before i get back to entertain you.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i think you already know where i'm going with this one because i gave you that spoiler a couple weeks back. but yes, i've made you a few more games to mess around with.

⠀⠀⠀⠀so, the first! the jigsaw puzzle. i made you another! and just for extra motivation, i finished the 169 piece version, with the rotations off, in 25:18. heh. if you can finish it faster than i did, i can promise you kisses as soon as i get back to you. and if you're still bored, you can play around with it some more. use other photos or maybe try challenging yourself to the ones with more pieces!

⠀⠀⠀⠀aside from that, i have made you yet another a word search! i went with a constellation/outer space theme this time to be a little different but the rules remain the same. when you finish up with the puzzle, don't forget to solve the secret message that lies within the letters ( hopefully, all the words are there this time and i didn't mess up the order ).

⠀⠀⠀⠀last, but not the least, i found a maze puzzle for you to try! not gonna lie, i got kinda excited when i saw the t shaped one because it can stand for theo or thomas or taeoh or taehyun. anyway, if you manage to complete the maze, you may, once again, claim a prize from the kissing booth manned by one lee taehyun.

⠀⠀⠀⠀alright, that's all for now. i would've made you more things but i was a little pressed for time. either way, i hope you have a little fun with these, baby!

with much love,
⠀⠀⠀⠀your thomas.

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08/02/2019

to: han taeoh, the love of my life.

⠀⠀⠀⠀hello, you gorgeous being. well, when i asked about the song recommendation you gave me a couple weeks back, it was for this. honestly, i debated on doing this because i haven't touched a piano in the longest time but i might've managed to somehow pull it off. i think. i might've. or. okay, so it isn't perfect. i tired. i just hope it makes you smile because you deserve to smile every single god damn day. but, more than that. these i promise you:

⠀⠀⠀⠀• to make you french toast in the mornings.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to love you more than i love coffee.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to watch cartoons with you whenever you want to.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to remember to order your mcdonald's chicken nuggets.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to hold your hand when we cross the street.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to support you through all the ups and downs that life has in store for us.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to be honest and truthful, even if it's scares me.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to never make you guess my feelings, even if it means giving up a bit of control.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to remind myself, especially if we're fighting, that a relationship is about communication.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to share my demons and to help you carry yours.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to choose you, everyday, until i'm old and grey.
⠀⠀⠀⠀• to love you, sincerely, no matter what.

⠀⠀⠀⠀and i know i'm not perfect. on some days, i will likely struggle but what i can truly promise is that i will always try. you mean the whole world to me, theo. you are everything. and i love you from the bottom of my heart.

from: lee taehyun, one lucky son of a gun.

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just close your eyes each loving day.
and know this feeling won't go away.
every word i say is true.
this i promise you. ♫

02/02/2019

hey, handsome.

⠀⠀⠀⠀so it's game day! are you nervous? anxious? excited? can't wait to run out onto court? although, come to think of it, i haven't really been around to witness your game day prep. do you have superstitions? try to maintain the same routine? keep a lucky charm? i remember one time, when i was still in canada, i had a teammate who would wear the exact same pair of underwear for game day. i never understood but if it won us games, i couldn't really complain. i, myself, as a creature of habit, like to stick to the same schedule when we have games. so, i'm gonna show you a couple things from my to-do list on days like this. heh.

⠀⠀⠀⠀pre-game. well, i hope you got enough sleep and you feel well rested. and make sure to get something to eat— maybe nothing too heavy though— before you head out so you don't feel too full. i packed you a few cereal bars too, just in case! ⠀
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⠀⠀⠀⠀i know each player has their own little routine. i, personally, like doing light work, get up on the stationary bike for maybe 20 minutes just to get started before warm ups with the rest of the team. and then, for us, my guys like blasting music in the locker room just to get hyped. in case you're one of those people, i made you a playlist with some songs i like to listen to before a match! you can open the spotify link down below.

⠀⠀⠀⠀more importantly though, before you go out there, just take a breath, okay? all the work you've put into will show itself. don't worry about the number of points your opponent scored or the missed shots. ( i mean, #shootershoot. ), just put it all out on the floor because at the end of the day, that's all we can do.

⠀⠀⠀⠀in other words, just enjoy yourself out there. forget about everything else. you got this, babe. i'll be right there in the stands cheering you on and if i can't, you know i'll be supporting you from wherever i'm at. i'm really proud of you, mon chou.

p.s.

⠀⠀⠀⠀okay, also. just. i know you know this but just really quickly. after the game, don't forget to stretch to loosen the muscles, tendons, and ligaments. it'll rid your body of the lactic acid build up so you won't feel too sore in the morning. and eat something! and don't forget to keep yourself hydrated even after the match too. i'll catch you after the game, promise. so, now, kick some ass. drop 30 on 'em!

with all the support,
⠀⠀⠀⠀your biggest fan.

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03/02/2019

hello, theo appa.

⠀⠀⠀⠀fun fact: whenever i look at kenji, it takes me back to the first time we met. and how you used to tease me that you loved my dog more than me. incredible. make a man jealous of his own dog why don't you?

⠀⠀⠀⠀fun fact 2: i'm 100% convinced you're kenji's new favorite. i think this is foreshadowing the future with our kids. 'cause he really keeps farting on me and he likes to cuddle up to you.

⠀⠀⠀⠀fun fact 3: as much as i joke about it, i'm really grateful that he brought us together. because good god, at one point, i think kenji was the only thing keeping you around— i'm pretty sure you would've bolted because of how awkward we were. i know i've told you this before but i still think it's really funny that our first meeting was all over the place. i remember i was talking to a good mate of mine way back when, and he was telling me how he met his girlfriend, who he eventually married. it was literally one of those story book meetings and they just completely hit it off and you already knew they would get together. and we were not that. at all. and yet at the same time, we were.

⠀⠀⠀⠀anyway, that's probably a story for another day. i collected a few photos of the little guy for you. hopefully they make you smile, maybe when your day hasn't been going so well or maybe if you're away and you just miss us.

⠀⠀⠀⠀ah. he's grown up so much. he really feels like my first son. thank you for always taking care of him and loving him like he was yours to begin with. you're really going to be the most amazing dad in the future.

⠀⠀⠀⠀but for now, here's to our little lee-han family.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀thomas appa.

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03/02/2019

to my loving fiancé,

⠀⠀⠀⠀if you're reading this before may 18th, 2019— i think i'm going to need you to put it away. i'll let you open all the others, except this one because if everything goes according to plan in the next couple months, today must be our wedding day.

⠀⠀⠀⠀are you still reading. you probably are.

⠀⠀⠀⠀babe.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i'm serious.

⠀⠀⠀⠀okay, i'm just gonna assume you followed the rules so, here goes nothing.

⠀⠀⠀⠀one year ago today, if you told me i'd be getting married to someone who challenged me to be better, someone who makes me laugh even when i don't want to, someone who until this day, makes my heart beat like crazy and gives me all the butterflies like he did the very first time, i'm pretty sure i'd laugh and tell you to stop playing around. i think at that point, i stopped believing i'd find the person who inspired me to get out of bed everyday, to work hard, to make the most out of everyday. it really felt like i was just getting through the days, however which way i could. whether it was sleeping around or burying myself in my work. until, of course, you came around and changed everything. you were the breath of fresh air, the jolt to start my heart up again.

⠀⠀⠀⠀you are my sun, my moon, and all of my stars.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i love you, han taeoh. i love you so much. i already know i will never ever find the proper words to let you know just how much. you just light up my days like no one ever has before. you give the warmest hugs and the softest kisses. you play along to my whimsical whims, as crazy as they may sound— those which include singing in the kitchen, dancing in our living room, playing in the pool of sprinkles, or racing in shopping carts. you have been so patient with me, in learning all my quirks and struggles, all my flaws and insecurities, teaching me to manage my emotions better, and whenever i start to lose my way, all i have to do is look at the hand holding my own and i just know everything will be okay.

⠀⠀⠀⠀you are my waking thought, my sweet dream, and everything in between.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i hope you know that i, in return, will always be there for you too. and honestly, can i tell you a secret? whenever i think about it, you have come such a long way too and i'm so proud of you. do you remember when it took you forever to accept my compliments. we'd go back and forth because you just wouldn't believe me. maybe i won't know if you really take it to heart but i'd really like to believe that you'd slowly starting to accept the good things people say about you. it's like how you'll say "you're precious too" compared to when you'd just use to deny everything. i remember my one wish on that day so many months ago was that you'd see yourself the way i did. someone capable and amazing and wonderful. you want to know something else? do you remember that day we were going over my review paper for that journal article on dna sequencing? for the people with arrhythmia? you started talking to me about how you wished the world would try to reach out to the less fortunate because they deserved proper health care too? it was that and when you were telling me about how you wanted to put the environment first that really made me admire you. i think it's really nice that i can talk to you like that too. that we aren't just full of sugar and sweets that will rot your teeth. your intelligence and compassion never cease to amaze me just as much as my book smarts and logic do for you. you really are the perfect fit for me, huh? find someone who you can be gross and cheesy to, but also be highly rated together, but also have intellectual conversations with.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i will love you for everything that you are, and everything that you will become.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i actually have so much more to say. i was never really good with writing so actually this letter might turn out to be a big hot mess with way too many parts missing. but— the one thing i do want to include. i just wanted to say i'm so fucking excited to get married to you. i really really am. one day soon. it's so surreal when i think about it. i was just thinking about when you first mentioned it to me and the time that i proposed. my god, i can't wait to see you dressed up. can't wait to hear you finally said "i do" after all this thing that i've been dreaming of it. i truly sincerely honestly just can not wait to start the rest of my life with you.

⠀⠀⠀⠀it's you, because no one else makes sense.

⠀⠀⠀⠀so before i truly get carried away, here's to today. because today, i am the luckiest man in the world. not just because i get to marry the man of my dreams, but because i get to start the life of my dreams. here's to the kisses that have yet to come. the late nights spent under the sheets. the celebrations for the new year's, birthday's, february fourteenth's, christmas's, and all the other special days combined. here's to you. and me. and us. and a promise of a lifetime.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i love you, han taeoh. i'll see you later.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀your future husband, who right now, just can't wait to be married to you.

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03/02/2019

hey, you with the cute smile.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i believe a study break is in order. normally, they'd suggest doing something relaxing like taking a walk, stretching, tidying up. i think i remember another method was to take a bath to clear your mind. also, just putting this out there, naps are traps unless they're under 20 minutes. so! because we want to avoid getting distracted with the internet, i have personally made you a few bingo cards to play with. there are four! a student, couples, and animated movies edition ( which, i kinda messed up the editing. ha. you're supposed to cross off the ones you've watched ). and i hope you have a little fun just ticking them off.

⠀⠀⠀⠀as an added bonus, if you manage to get a bingo in any of the three, you get a prize! just show me which one you won and i'll gladly deliver your reward but! after you get through those lecture slides.

⠀⠀⠀⠀this one won't be too long because i don't want to take your time. a study break is supposedly only to be around 10 minutes if you're doing memorization or review. so, it should be about that time soon.

⠀⠀⠀⠀let's get you back to studying, yeah? good luck, baby. stay strong! you got it.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀me with the over the top gifts galore.

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02/02/2019

to my better half,

⠀⠀⠀⠀hello. i hope it isn't raining too hard. if it is, before you follow through with this letter, please make sure to close the windows. let's avoid flooding the apartment. and if it is, and there's a power outage and i'm no where to be found, i think we have some candles in the cabinet under the kitchen sink. maybe. the matches are in the first drawer beside the fridge.

⠀⠀⠀⠀anyway, i shall assume you're safe and sound in the comforts of our home. so! while i, personally, enjoy the rain. there's something very calming about listening to the pitter-patter of the drops of water. in fact, the rain actually reminds me of you. how it keeps falling. like how i fell for you. you may or may not share the same sentiments. if it's the latter and if i have yet to be returned to you, for the mean time, i have a few things that may hopefully bring you comfort and or help pass the time while you wait.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i leave you, my darling dearest, my favorite hoodie— which officially brings our total of "things that once belonged to thomas but are now theo's" up to three. it's probably going to be a size or two too big on you, but then again, knowing you, you might actually like that more. i also have a book for you to cozy up to and keep you busy in the mean time. i'm not sure if you've read this one before but even i, who typically reads non-fiction books, found it intriguing in how murakami was able to twist such a simple love story into something suddenly extremely elaborate.

⠀⠀⠀⠀well, there you have it, thomas's rainy day fix. although, hopefully, i can get back to you from wherever the heck i am as soon as possible to give you kisses and cuddles, keep you warm and cozy from the rain.

⠀⠀⠀⠀just wait for me, okay? i promise i'll be with you in a minute!

p.s.
⠀⠀⠀⠀as a side note, if you won't be staying in while it's raining out, make sure you take an umbrella, please! don't go running outside without it. make sure you stay safe and if it starts to rain any harder, stay indoors and wait it out. i don't want you getting sick or anything. long story short, be careful!

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀a man who holds you in the highest regard and marvels at your wonder every single day.

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01/02/2019

hey, lovebug.

⠀⠀⠀⠀wishes. they're a funny thing, aren't they? do you remember that time we said that you were the dreamer and i was the realist? and i do, in fact, classify myself as someone very practical so i think it's just really funny that i'm such a strong believer in making wishes. even as a kid. i took ever wishing well, birthday candle, wishbone, eyelash, four leaf clover so seriously. i remember this one birthday, i was probably eight? and i took maybe five whole minutes to make wish before blowing out the candles and my sister, she was so impatient. she tried to blow out the candles herself because she wanted the cake and i just started bawling. my mother even keeps a picture and everything. god.

⠀⠀⠀⠀anyway, i'm not even sure if you're the type to stop and think for a wish when you spot a shooting star, because i know a lot of people are skeptics and it does seem rather silly to be blowing on dandelions and praying things work out for you. but. at the same time, if these little things can just give you that sliver of hope for whatever it is you need right now, it couldn't hurt, right?

⠀⠀⠀⠀first! the shooting star. while i was making this, i truly debated on making those confetti flinger cards. and then i thought, would theo really want to clean up after it. so, i have obviously decided against it and instead, i made star cut outs for you to fling across the room to make your own shooting stars. supposedly, the tradition started way back when ptolemy theorized that the gods were watching over the people on earth. when they did, sometimes, they'd let the stars slip out of their grasps, which was how you knew they were up there at that very instant.

⠀⠀⠀⠀second! the dandelion. okay. so, technically, i know you're supposed to blow on them, but i was worried they'd all fall out so i picked 'em out and pressed them for you. i couldn't actually find where the tradition started but i'm thinking people enjoyed watching the seeds float away into the air, carrying their good thoughts and wishes to their loved ones.

⠀⠀⠀⠀third! the rainbow. yes, are you confused. this is not a rainbow. it's a cd. i burned a cd for you. it has all the songs i've been posting on the deliveryfortheo account. but. what i really want you to do is place the cd under a bright patch of sunlight and sit back to your very own rainbow.

⠀⠀⠀⠀last! the four leaf clover. so maybe i couldn't find you a four leaf clover in time but i did get you a bookmark of it. these things are supposed to stand for hope, faith, love, and luck because they're extremely rare. apparently, there's a 1 in 10,000 chance to spot the four instead of the three leaf shamrock. so. hopefully, this one works like a charm.

⠀⠀⠀⠀aside from these though, you have one more wish maker right next to you. i, thomas lee taehyun, promise to do everything in my power to make your greatest dreams and desires come true. all i will ever want is your happiness. in the mean time, i'll have my fingers crossed for you.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀someone who hopes everything you wish for comes true.

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10/02/2019

hello to my once in a lifetime,

⠀⠀⠀⠀so, i know "somewhere beautiful" is undeniably very vague but— if you're reading this and i'm not with you at this very minute, and you're somewhere with the most breathtaking view, just a quick reminder to take a minute and soak it all in. it's such a beautiful world, y'know? and we're really lucky. even just seeing the sunset at the end of the day can make you think.

⠀⠀⠀⠀anyway, do you remember when we talked about getting to travel the world together? well, i'm writing this in the frame of mind that we're currently somewhere, out there, on another one of our trips, maybe we're in japan or hong kong or paris, and i'm probably off buying us some food or trying to bring back souvenirs for everyone back at home. so in the mean time, i'm gonna rattle off a few places i think we should go to in the future.

⠀⠀⠀⠀paris, france. perhaps this is the next stop for our trip around the world? i think it's really cute that you wanted to go to the city of love for the honeymoon, as cliche as that may sound. maybe we can have dinner somewhere with the eiffel tower in our sights? there's a place called les ombres with the most perfect view. we could even have a picnic in the bois de vincennes, rent a boat, and watch me look stupid while i try to sing for you. or we could just walk the streets in passage verdeau or montmarte, have tea, eat some cake, look at the wall of love and take silly pictures with it. and then watch me run off to buy you flowers from the guy across the street while we're out there because you deserve everything beautiful. i can already imagine you shaking your head, laughing at me, and i wouldn't even mind. anything to see you smile like that.

⠀⠀⠀⠀rome, italy. you'd be surprised by how many beautiful landmarks there are in rome. one minute you're standing in a modern store and the next, you're faced to faced with ruins that have stood the tests of time. we could go to trevi fountain, toss a coin, make a wish. not to spoil it but i'm definitely going to wish for your happiness. we can race up the spanish steps, winner gets all the kisses, and then cool off with some gelato after. i think we should also visit the monumento nazionale a vittorio emanuele. you get the best view of the city— nothing like you've ever seen.

⠀⠀⠀⠀reykjavik, iceland. i debated back and forth if we should, one day, go to alaska, norway, or iceland. or maybe even up north in canada. to chase the northern lights. but i think i settled for iceland just for a little bit more of an adventure. rent a cabin, bundled up while we just enjoy the aurora borealis? we could also go see the blue lagoon? relax in the sauna, get a massage? and if you're feeling a little adventurous, we can even go horseback riding? fun fact: if we walk around the town, there are streets with names from nordic cultures. i think, if i'm not mistaken, freyjugata (freya's street), lokastigur (loki's path), and porsgata (thor's street) all exist. first to find all three wins a prize?

⠀⠀⠀⠀florida, usa. okay, this one might be a little unconventional compared to the other things on the list. but. i was thinking we could make the trip to go to magic kingdom since you enjoy animated movies so much. and, i mean, where's a better place than disneyland. we could ride the carousel, buy matching mickey ears, y'know. the works. play the carnival games ( i promise i won't get too competitive. ) share an ice cream cone, ride the ferris wheel and kiss at the top of the ride, and enjoy the fireworks at the end of the day.

⠀⠀⠀⠀jeju, south korea. we got one more and this one isn't too far from home. i'm not gonna lie i think i just want to go to play in loveland but definitely, seeing the cliffs and the waterfalls would be really fun too. we could visit the waterpark there too, go to jungmun beach, and eat all the seafood hot pot we can. should be fun, right?

⠀⠀⠀⠀ah, maybe i've gotten a little ahead of myself, haven't i? i'm just really excited to see things with you. so hopefully, we get to visit these places and so many others in the coming years. ♡

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀your ever enthusiastic forever and always.

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13/02/2019

hello, my theo.

⠀⠀⠀⠀can't fall asleep, huh? is there something keeping you up? something on your mind? i'm sorry i can't be there to hold you and give you kisses and help you get to sleep. who i do have for you— and i know the new guy won't be able to replace mr. sharko— are a new buddies to keep you company. i got them when we went to the aquarium in okinawa! make sure to name these guys too, okay? so if tommy is there for you when you're upset or crying, the new shark friends will be there to help you fall asleep. or maybe you can have all of them together. you can tell these guys anything that's on your mind too. or maybe if you just wanna cuddle them so they fall asleep with you too.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i also have for you some tea, because chamomile is truly very soothing. but if you aren't feeling like tea, maybe some hot milk? or a warm bath? or maybe you can doing a few relaxing activities—aka meditation, yoga, or even just listen to some calming music— just to quiet the mind. and if after all that, you still can't fall asleep, don't beat yourself up over it, okay? just because it's 3 am doesn't mean you have to be asleep. sometimes you just can't and frankly, it happens to the best of us. take it easy, won't you, lovebug? just relax a bit. hopefully, you'll get to doze off in a while. and when you do, i hope you have the sweetest dreams.

p.s.
⠀⠀⠀⠀if something's really really really bothering you, please don't hesitate to wake me. you won't be a bother. you are my priority. taking care of you is my priority. we can always just doodle together or play twenty questions or maybe even stay up to catch the sunrise together.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀your thomas.

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04/02/2019

hello to my theo han taeoh.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i'm sorry you aren't feeling so well. i hope it isn't a bad case of the colds or even worse, a fever. i hope you feel better really really soon. but in the mean time, especially if i can't be there to take care of you right now at this very moment because watch me run to you right after class ends— there's no way i'm leaving you alone when you're sick unless i absolutely have to. anyway! i have a few things for you while you're out. a care package! there are lozenges, tissue, cold packs. even some soup in a can that you can just heat up if you get hungry. please try to take it easy today, baby. and don't forget to drink lots of water. if there's honey at home, you can add it to some tea and if we don't, text for me to buy some?

⠀⠀⠀⠀i don't wanna spend too much time telling you how to get better when you should be resting so maybe get some sleep, baby? i'll be with you in a minute. promise.

p.s.
⠀⠀⠀⠀call me if you start to feel bad, okay? doesn't matter if i'm in class, in training, whatever. i'll get back to you as soon as i can. you are my priority. taking care of you is my priority.

wishing you get well soon,
⠀⠀⠀⠀your thomas lee taehyun.

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03/02/2019

hey, cutie.

⠀⠀⠀⠀why do i get the feeling you already know where this is going. but. if you don't, in classic thomas fashion, we, at maketheohappy/.org, bring you cheesy wit or nerdy pick up lines that will hopefully bring a smile to your face or better yet, make you laugh— whether it's from the joke itself or from how silly your fiancé actually is, we may never now but the thought still stands. i do, however, have just one for you. your favorite pick up line.

⠀⠀⠀⠀❝i know you're not a fan of math but i hope you at least like trigonometry.❞

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❝cosine need you.❞

⠀⠀⠀⠀okay, i think i'm gonna go ahead and leave it at that before i embarrass myself any further. but, just one more thing before i let you off, if you've opened this because you were upset about something or if you've perhaps had a bad day, don't forget to open up the other letter too, okay? i have far too many things to say but i'll save it for that your other open when. real quickly though? i love you. okay? i love you so so much, theo. cheer up. wherever i am, i'll be with you in no time at all. promise.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀your nerdy little jokester.

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13/02/2019

to the one i love,

⠀⠀⠀⠀if you've open this, you must be having a hard time. i would first like to apologize because anxiety is an ass. i'm sorry that you feel this weight on your chest, it's too heavy, too tight, and it's hard to breathe. i'm sorry if you have no control over your emotions, over your own thoughts, spawned by the demons of your past. and i'm most especially sorry if you're thinking this way particularly because of something i've done.

⠀⠀⠀⠀as i write this, i may not know what's exactly on your mind but if you really are worried about us, then i need to remind you that i love you. i am so truly and sincerely in love with you, tae. for all that you are and for all that you will become. please never forget it. i only ever want the best for you. i only ever want you to be happy, whatever that means. you've brought so much goodness into my life i can only hope to pay it forward. i'm here. for whatever you need. i'm here to help you unpack all the baggage you've been carrying around all this time. i'm here if you need someone to ward off your demons. i'm here if you just need someone to hold your hand while you fight your battles on your own. i'm here. i'll be here. always.

⠀⠀⠀⠀i know it isn't easy. i know you've had a past with people who weren't able to take care of your most precious heart. you've loved. all you ever did was love them but they hurt you. and you deserved much better than that. i promise i'll work every day to make sure you know you're enough— because you are. i'll work every day to remind you that you have me completely enamored by you. you really truly do. i have never been this in love with someone before.

⠀⠀⠀⠀you are my one and only. you are my heart and soul. you're my future, before i ever even knew you. you're the sunshine on a rainy day, you're the shelter from the hurricane. you're my best friend. you're the one i look for when things are going awry. yours is the hand i want to hold for the rest of my days. there's no one else for me but you. do you remember what i told you all those many months ago? i still think that way.

⠀⠀⠀⠀you're it for me.

⠀⠀⠀⠀so, please, if you still have any kind of doubt, any kind of worry, any kind of anxiety, come find me. call me. text me. message me. anything. everything. i'll be with you as soon as i possibly can to hold you in my arms and remind you myself that we're going to be okay. that i've promised to you like you've promised to me that we're going to make it work, that we'll always find home.

⠀⠀⠀⠀take a deep breath, tae. you're okay. we're okay.

from,
⠀⠀⠀⠀the one who would move heaven and earth to see your most gorgeous smile.

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